It is amazing that how much we want to love and to be loved. 

The essence of human life is nothing but love. 

But if and when our love is rejected or ignored the result can be very opposite 

Even destructive. 

How simple minded we are...

I vent my anger
Breathe in and out the air of bitterness, which feed my ego
Became stranger to myself
The softest girl has left
I dine with the thunder storm

Sun…shine on me…
When I am loosing my way

I swing
I sing
Open arms and legs
Let them fly
Massive… massive anger and despairs
Go away…
Let them go…away

Open the door to the sunshine
Baby you can do it
Sun…shine on me

Gold, Silver, Euro, Palestinians and me...

One day, I feel like Gold
The next day, I feel like Silver
Another day, I feel like Euro 

The day after that,
I feel like Palestinians,
who lost everything and
Fighting for the ground and their existence...

Just be quiet!
I told to my nose and brain,
which keep venting words after words
they keep shouting and yelling
the acceleration seems unstoppable if you could not be quiet so
go onto the highway

let them fly
fly on the highway

day after day
night after night...

Give me a space in the garden
Where all the birds sing beautifully
Where all the flowers are not failed to blossom
Where the air is clean from sin
Where I can’t be a sinister for murdering anyone who is guilty or innocent

This is the garden for me, for my son, for all the kids
This is the garden, where we all speak the same language of peace and harmony
This is the garden where we can trust each other and no space for agony
This is the garden where we all are free from anxiousness and misery
This is the garden where we all can keep our healthy mind and body.

Time philosophy

Time is flying.
All of us are flying on the time.
I ask to sell some times from time.
No way, she said.
Make it happen, when it has to happen.
Let it go, when it has to go.
Enjoy it, when things are in your favor.
Forget it, when nothing seems working out.

Son Oliver

He was born 19th of October 2008. He is very special boy by himself. He was conceived unexpectedly and he came to the world out of my tummy unexpectedly. After all the discussion, my husband and I took the decision to have him because there will never be the right time and if we don’t take the chance now, there might not be again. So, there he was in my tummy growing for 9 months (almost). When he was one or two month, I was in Burma/Myanmar and when he was three month old in my tummy, I was in Cambodia. I was travelling very hard trip with his pregnancy. I was carrying the heavy luggage throughout. But I know my tough guy will still remain firm in my tummy.
19th October 2008
He came out to the world Sunday early morning 9:08 a.m. It was an amazing pain and amazing joy in my life.

let's talk about independent women...

the majority of the women in the western part of the world, talk about independence and freedom. It might have been over many hundreds years of revolutions in the West and has taught them to say so, to do so and to be so.

In my case, i heard of this word, " Independence" from my present husband last 10 years ago. In the foot of Shwedagon Pagoda in Myanmar, we were sitting there and
he told me " how important it is to be an independent woman"...
I repeated "independent woman" and the word echoed in my entire body, from head to toes.
After having an affair for 5 years with him, we cohabited in Vienna, it was the beginning of 2006and very cold winter.
Since then i never heard the story of " independent woman" anymore.
I was depending on him from head to toes.
Throughout the years we been together, the word still echos everyday " independent woman". What has happened to her"?

My husband, seems forgotten this independent woman. he didn't give me way to become an independent any more.
The legend of independent woman remains in my head and memory.
I think of the pioneer of the independent women everyday of my life.
I struggle hard to become an independent myself.
Still, i m not free and i am not succeeding...