Far Away from Everything

2009 September

Please realize that I am far away from
everything I dreamt of or I needed to have.
I am in a foreign country where most people are rude,
the policy is disgusting and
I know nothing of their language.
I am alone (entirely alone with the baby) without any help.
When you come home you come home like a visitor.
I am just now getting realize that where I am.
I am getting nervous, anxious and lost my concentration.
I don’t remember what I have done or what I was thinking just one second ago.
Do you think I can handle this more?
I tried to calm down but I can hardly succeed.
I can only be normal as soon as I am out of this city and
far away from this burden of loneliness without any help.
The best place for me is Thailand.
If I go home now to Myanmar,
it is still a lot of pressure there.