"Dancing with my books"

28.09.2013

I just want nights

No daylights

Dance with bunch of books and Leonard

Plead my computer not to die

Shower, mascara can wait

I am in hell,

without devils…

Wait heaven

I will be there,

for the rest of my life

That’s right

I just want nights…

“Civilization and me”

26.09.2013

I have no desire

to distance myself from civilization

I adopt, I adapt

I learn,

I earn mutual respect

I believe

I have a soul, which follows

Certain values

I have no desire

to measure the values of the others,

which values are more or which values are less

But I believe

I have a soul, which follows

Certain values

I accept no subjugation, no humiliation

I accept no coercion, no half-human thinking

Yes, I repeat

I have no desire

to distance myself from civilization

A Warlord

5 July 2013

Meeting with the Warlord

Because you are a warlord, do I have to do the impossible exception?
Because you bring an army of men with guns, do I have to obey you?
Because you threaten me with your stars and whatever status on your shoulders, do you want me to be scared?
Because you think you have the power to influence me this way, do I have to buy your game?
OK…
You think we are cool now, huh?
You think I give in.
You think you win.
Yu think you can rule Afghanistan this way…
You think this is how it all works!
But,
I also have a secret card to play my Warlord baby!
You will know it later…
This is how it works in real world.
Keep in mind that
If I am scare of your guns and You, Warlord
I would not be here in Afghanistan!
Now go home and tell your mother,
You got what you want
because you have the guns and the petty gun-men…
Go home now…
Go home now…
And
Dream on…

Workable Pain

13.07.2013

Pain in my throat
It is a severe pain
Whenever I feel pain, I am more alert
So typical of me, I guess…
Whole 4 days of holiday is gone,
Just gone, gone gone…with the Afghan holy wind…
My whole life does not really have holiday though
Or perhaps, life itself is a holiday
Put it this way…
I am crossing over the life, over the holidays…
It’s ok
But I won’t say goodbye un-noticed.
I would blame myself if I do…
Today we went to the Belgians place to say hello.
My son and me skip Another place…
Social obligation is part of the game here…
Today I live for today
Tomorrow is the working day again…
No roses are waiting for me at the office…
That’s fine.
I come here to work…
I can work until I drop darlin’.
At the same time, fulfill my other commitments…
If this is not what life all about, what is?
Anyway,
Many Afghans ask me where the life begins…
Yes, where the life begins?
From an Apple, I answered…
And it is quite delicious...
Yeah, despite the pain in my throat…
It is quite delicious…
Life

A Moment

17.07.2013

Can I talk to you for a moment?
Today, I am a bit upset
Just like another day
But another matter
Can’t get over it yet
That I know
And you will know it too
I know you love me excessively
You will listen to me,
as you always do
It is not about stars or wars
It is not about flowers or the hot summer
It is not about my brothers or father
I admit
Sometimes, just random
My mood swings
Not today darlin’
It is not just another bad day
I have a reason or evidence
I am entitled to be upset
Will you listen to me?
I don’t need any comfort.
Talking is the best therapy…
Can I talk to you for a moment?
Today, I am a bit upset
Just like another day
But another matter
Can’t get over it yet
That I know
And you will know it too.
…

Humanity

23.09.2013

Offer me
Humanity
This is what I need most here
…
No vessel can bring me elsewhere
But to an Ocean of Love
Abundant smiles on the colorful flowers and rose gardens are blessing on earth
My heart is filled with content
Not so hard…
Reward is
Nothing...
But love

"A list of Goals Before I Die"

22.09.2013

It’s a bright day

The night is no longer dark

The day no longer gray

No day is better than today…

I look forward to get old

A friend of mine, an Indian girl predicted that I will live until 70.

Not bad if that is to happen, I thought

Better than Angelina Jolie

She is now predicted to live another 3 years Only.

What a sad News!!!

Believe me I am anxious when hear such a horrible News…

Looking back

What have I done?

How did I live?

What more to be done?

Etc. all that… coil up in mind

Oh well,

Better hurry to get things done

Don’t wait!

Look, I got a list of goals to complete before I die

1    1. My son’s well- being, his security and his best future

2    2. To complete my Ph D

3    3. To get involve in my country’s education sector

4    4. To publish at least 100 books

That’s the goals

Let’s see how I will handle them…

I still have some time to work on it

But don’t wait!

It’s a bright day

The night is no longer dark

The day no longer gray

No day is better than today…

“Walking under the Moonlight”

19.09.2013

There is no moon of course

In this cold raining night

Feel the moonlight in heart

The night appears

much lighter and brighter

Allow sentimentality to rule me

The hard shell of a crab

crack, crack, crack…

The inside softness

Taste it!

Life or death

Nothing can ruin me

Walk

Walk

Walk

Under the moonlight

In this cold raining night...